Infinite Being, Being Seen and Reflections

Infinite Being

IF I believe I am expansive and infinite in my being, I am not stagnate. Rather, I am in a constant state of change. Much like the Dao, I cannot fully know myself and cannot expect others to fully know me. I also cannot fully know others. I anticipate others to change over time and hopefully in a direction of fearless Love.

I can hold multiple ideas on beliefs and can’t hold fast to any particular truth since I am often shown grey areas. For a small time, I might have a set “boundary of beliefs”. I re-examine my beliefs about myself, the world I live in, the interactions I have etc regularly as I change.

What is being seen then?

Following the line of thought on that particular belief, what does “being seen” mean? What does it mean to feel invisible?

I like this meditation. If we are part of a whole, maybe like a branch of a fractal and all expanding. Like points on a sphere. Each coming from different points or perspectives. When I was deep in trauma, alcoholism or grief, how did that filter change how I saw my world around me? It was a reflection of my inner world. If I now hold a more natural state of being connected and in Love, how does that filter color my world?

What are reflections of self and what does it mean to be seen by others. Can I live the life of a hermit? Can I live in a vacuum and still be seen? If I think the Universe sees me and I am never alone even if nothing is around, then I can rest in solitude. As humans, is part of the experience to gain connections? There seems to be a balance emerging here :)

I have a few songs that dig into this feeling and wanted to dance to them. Fuck writing about my thoughts on it. Why not dance to it?

Seeing and Observing

I practice the art of observation when I site in Nature and ask “what would you like me to notice?” I also practice this while sketching still lives. Everything slows down when I draw. My pulse has to be steady and my breath even.

Then there is a really fun physics concept called “observer effect”!

A Perfect Circle “3 Libras”

What do we expect from others (the wounded)? What if what we see is only ourselves? My window of tolerance is much greater so if someone says “I see you and I have something to say on the matter”. I can hear using my love filter and hopefully what is being shared is heart felt from their perspective. Even if they say something I find offensive or rudimentary, could I understand they meant well by sharing? Afterall, we are only one point on the sphere, one branch of the fractal and some of us have lived very broken lives. Some are still a bit broken.

Dance:

Part 1 https://youtube.com/shorts/PFHur8-E0EM?si=S3M6Zc7iU4EvhGn4

Part 2 https://youtube.com/shorts/wPAFMQDIFCk?si=zludBS9d6ks1WIiE

Part 3 https://youtube.com/shorts/q78mGPOrx8s?si=e3iG72gJ7TPoV1e0

Christine and the Queen “People I’ve Been Sad”

I retracted after losing my grandma. I retracted a little walking through grief. Not much connection, just this inward vast journey to be ok.

I have immense empathy for others when they need to retract their energy to focus on living and growing. This song expresses that for me.

Dance: In this I wear a shirt my grandma and I bought when I was 17 from a trip to DC. I love her and miss her

https://youtube.com/shorts/OmOXss3d3GA?si=KjcR15uHKG51vIge

https://youtube.com/shorts/_zfvw2Fw8Bk?si=5IrV0Clw3k5lIEKd

https://youtube.com/shorts/9fyvyv4h2dw?si=aw0Gh4FQ9rZ6N8dQ